A man shouldn’t be alone

I don’t even know what it is, but it’s not exactly a midlife crisis. And not sadness, because it’s been a long time since I’ve been a widow.
I used to do something around the house every day, make something delicious to please my husband and myself. I used to do it back then, but I didn’t realize I wasn’t doing it for myself.
When my husband was gone, I stopped pampering myself with delicious things. I don’t have time to cook, I’m sorry. I was the cleanest one. I cleaned my apartment a day later. Now it’s good if I wash the floors once a week.
Only when you’re left alone, you realize that all you did was not for yourself, but for the person you love.
Why make yourself a pie? I’m not eating a whole pie. At best, I’ll buy myself a pie at the supermarket. It’s the same with regular dishes – I cook what’s easier and quicker.
You don’t have to be alone. There should be someone near you who should be pleased with coziness and pleasant little things.